i wanna start this blog so i have something to say i have done- something to say that is mine. i really want to stay consistent with my site, i struggle with that, ive made wayyyy too many sites before (like 2-3 Still a Lot) and i really want that i feel like i can say is mine. i want to get better at talking about myself in general too and knowing who i am and having my own space where i feel really like me, raw and unfiltered and able to do whateva i want, which im hoping this site can also be,,, i need a place to share wat ive done everyday freely and feel listened to !! ive been feeling a sort of disconnect ? from myself in a way lately fromin terms of inner workings to what i put in the world so i want this to be a fresh place for me, like i said raw and unfiltered,,,,

ive started a show recently called "Tomorrow, I'll be someones girlfriend.", its based off a manga which eventually id like to read. its about a bunch of girls who are rentable girlfriends and their experiences in the industry and i really love it so far,, its very visually pretty and i enjoy the characters a lot me thinks even though im only on episode 2 i plan to watch atleast one a day and i hope to Stick with that.. one of the main characters names is yuki which always makes me think of the seal yuki i looooove seals So much oh my god i plan to have lots of space on this site to discuss them i plan on making a sealy shrine hehehhe,, i would be a spotted seal and id galumph around all the time and id eat lots of fish and do lots of tricks like gyuu and byebye,,,, i love seals

i really want to do better at consuming media im genuinely interested in, i struggle really badly due to lack of motivation and i find myself rotting not even on social media but literal Staring at walls and id much rather atleast watch a show,, i want to start watching more shows, i have a couple i plan on right now and im excited to start and finish them all and hopefully write about them here.. i wanna play more games too and indulge in my hobbies more i wanna Learn more too i find that often i feel severely undereducated compared to my peers on basically any topic (especially academics, like politics and geography are ones i want to educate myself more in specifically) i am truly curious about things and i feel a little dumb for asking so many questions all of the time especially over small things, but i just dont wanna be wrong,, i want to put more of my own time into researching things i like or am interested in atleast !! i really want to begin more creative projects aswell, i have plans for some, some small some big, but theyre things i want to work on even if long-term. i want to feel creative again and no matter how long it takes im willing to atleast attempt to make that effort.